My thumb hurts. I think it's the stitches pulling. Sometimes it doesn't hurt at all and then it will be super tender like much of today. Exercise is difficult because when the blood gets pumping it throbs. So mostly I read, wander around a little, sleep, read, try to get my thumb comfy and do it all again. Both incisions, mine and the surgeon's, look good (eight tidy stiches in blue nylon thread) and I can change the dressing without fainting - so that's good. My patience is wearing a little thin and there are still weeks to go. Sheesh - it's only a thumb – get some perspective.
Shopping. In light of my limited abilities I've gone shopping. At Superstore we stocked up on produce that is already washed and cut up - stir fry broccoli, carrots and snow peas, coleslaw, brocolli slaw, easy to wash and eat - grape tomatoes, grapes, and pears. We also hit the freezer department and bought many frozen entrées as healthy and delicious as we could find. This has really helped meals to go better. For a few days I was eating way too much peanut butter!
Clothes. At first I was OK with wearing LK's big sweaters but taking a close look at my winter tops, with their mostly small wrists, led me to a trip to Rietmans where I nabbed a couple long sleeve T-shirts with stretchy sleeves and a couple of blouses with cuffs that accommodate my splint. I came on a good day - most everything was on sale.
Single Moms. We had a fantastic meeting this week and I am so grateful. Still working through the Relationships book by Les and Leslie Parrott. I had really prayed for order - maybe that seems a funny request, but we had a recent influx of children and a new babysitter. The last week I had been there we had no babysitter, all us lively talkative women and then the kids running in and out. It was a zoo. I could hardly hear myself think and I know others could hardly stay on track either. Anyway, this week went almost perfect. We had a new lady join the group, and a couple women came back from last year. Everyone was interested in the topic and participated. We’re talking about our family of origin - and the imprint they make on us. The women are very keen to try to determine what healthy looks like. Hurray. I said THANKYOU to God more or less continuously all the way home. For next time, I will have a key to the childcare classroom - that was the only glitch this time - Rushia had to quickly bring a key - but once she came we had happy kids and a good focused meeting. Praise God.
Passion. The word seems to be everywhere these days and to me it seems everyone has some. I just can't seem to stir any up (OK so I had some after Single Moms Wednesday night - surprisingly). Others have passion - I have mild interests - or so it seems. Yup, it's me again still commenting on emotional flatness. I just don't get used to this place. I keep tying to think of it as a restful place and I do OK there until another wave of passion talk passes by and I realize I not riding its wave.
Empty nest. Sometimes I think it will be nice to have one - just for the order and freedom. But the other night Steve told me he may be moving out soon and I felt fear. He's hardly ever home anyway, it's not like I'd be missing out on great visits over relaxed dinners. I haven't identified what the fear is - the unknown?
Gross. I bought a big box of dates that I’ve been enjoying. Shared some with Cara and Andy. Today I picked up a date, bit off one end, spit the pit into a plastic container on the kitchen counter, and there was a PUFF OF BLACK SMOKE. Gross, gross, gross. The inside of the date was completely dried out and black with dusty, puff, puff mold. Half of that date was in my mouth. Spit. This cannot be healthy. I ran down the hall to my toothbrush. Brush, brush, brush, mouthwash, brush, brush, brush, more mouthwash. EWWWW. There are four more big beautiful dates left. I can’t bring myself to think of eating them yet.
Sorry to end on such a gross note – or maybe you will find it amusing.
Peace