Everyone has gifts, Multiple gifts. I'm not one of those people who encourages others to discover what their gift (singular) is. Gifts are so varied, and so needed in community it's a good thing there are lots of different ones. This weekend we celebrated Lance and some of his gifts - music and words in particular, in the concert and releasing of the album Renovation.
I was thinking those are such public gifts -music and words - but then I thought they wouldn't have to be - he could have kept them to himself, but he didn't - and now, with the release of the album, Lance's words and music (and Aimee's art) go out as seeds cast. They will encourage, prop up, call, entertain, amuse, correct, teach, show, tell, light, and beautify where ever they land. The concert will be something many will remember for life. So many friends came - it was a reunion. The musicians had a blast and in turn we did too. The feel of the event was joyful, exuberant. Lots of people came who had never heard Lance - how cool. I don't know how they heard of it acutely - but I know the local paper had been very generous with our press releases. We got 4 articles and an add placed - just one indicator of favor on this project.
I love the music, I believe in Lance, I believe in truth, truth is in the music, truth and grace, health and life. I believe Renovation goes out on the wings of the dove who with great sweeping movement of strong yet gentle bright wings renovates the interior of our heart homes, fresh wind ushering in -- space. light. freedom. grace. celebration. dance. Move holy dove, renovate, make new.
Martha and Mary -
Change in direction here -- About me -- Looking back on the weekend, I wish I had two of myself. One to help facilitate and the other to just enjoy. I ran like a chicken with my head cut off - collecting, driving, delivering, helping, arranging, cooking, cleaning, video taping. Lance's family loves facilitating. It was amazing to watch them work together with imagination, smoothly, like a well orchestrated dance, seemingly tireless in serving the incredibly arranged intermission milk and cookie break AND the after party Norwegian Nacho party (you never saw anything like it).It gives me joy to do some of these things - in moderation. But if I had another of me, she would slow down, prepare in advance - everything, even film in camera and tripod located (what, did I loan it out?? never found it) - then my other self would revel in the experience, greet all the friends as if I had not a care in the world. I would sit up close take in every expression and drop of sweat. I would be almost in the music. Of course there was only one of me and she got very tired, she both did and did not do what she wanted. The show is very small looking through a camera lens, and you have to be very still - not something that comes naturally. LK filmed some of the time, and then I was free - hurray. But yesterday I watched some of the video - amateur filming to be sure - and I am thankful to have it. I get to see the concert again and again - with my feet up - relaxed - rested. It's often a matter of both - not either or - that is good. Sometimes a Martha sometimes a Mary.
Goodbye Traditions -
We got home from the after party at 2:00am. Lance and Aimee had to leave the house by 4:30am to catch their plane from Vancouver. I didn't set my alarm thinking I would hear Aimee and Lance up - then we would get up and say our goodbyes. I hugged Aimee goodnight and went to bed. I must have slept like a dead woman. The next thing I knew it was 6:30. I leapt out of bed - thinking and saying - "the Odegard's have missed their plane!" I ran across the hall - when to my shock I saw the empty guest room. I ran down the stairs and outside - no car. They were gone. Sleep deprived, shocked, I began to cry (outloud and ugly).
I was absolutely and pathetically inconsolable. For generations the women in my family have sent their people off with hugs, tears, prayers, watching and waving as they have driven off. This is how it goes. I was learning how deeply entrenched and significant this unspoken rule was to me. Where was rewind? Redo,
Redo! I was glad they hadn't missed the plane - but I wanted to go backwards. There was no one to hug. I went back to the empty guest room to find a note, or some evidence that they had been here - all I found was an used airline boarding pass and a ripped and wrinkled program from the night before. I tried to read it though my persistent tears. It was too blurry. I didn't like it that it was ripped and and wrinkled. I had failed to get a CD even. I'd go to the store later and get one - that would help. I wondered what the rest of the story was. Did we not respond to their morning knock? Had Aimee come in and whispered a goodbye and we slept on? Did they wake up really late and just have to run for it? Were they giving us the gift of sleep? It would take a while to find out.Later I talked to first Lance and then Aimee. We had never encountered such a late night and early departure time before. What to do - Odegards wondered? We had not been specific - wake us - Lance thought wake -Aimee thought my hug was the goodbye - she thought let them sleep. Aimee and Lance must have been mostly asleep - only two hours of sleep. It was to be a kindness. I never thought it was an unkindness --we are all good there.
Cara, who had overheard me cry and run out the door, later in the am helped me carry stuff in from the car and fed me a therapeutic muffins and orange juice breakfast while we enjoyed a visit. After I talked with those Odegards, and we had a little phone affection-connection (I just made that up - nice eh?) and phone goodbyes - all was good. This morning I woke up, no startle, no surprise at empty room, no panic - normal again.
You know, for what it's worth, I thought I would just tell this story and say - WOW -you just don't know HOW important some things are to you until a missed chance lets you know. SO...be forwarned - if you stay here - you won't be getting away with an early departure without saying goodbye - I will have my alarm set, and as you drive away you'll see me waving in your rearview mirror.










































